fine balance

Amma refused to have a second maid as extra help in her house. I, who had gone to stay at her place with my daughterfor the summer vacation wished otherwise. I remonstrated with her and it ended up in an emotional fight. i felt all shaken up and weak after this incident. it seems like the flight from thought to emotional outburst is exactly 1 minute for me. will it ever improve ? My tendency to hang at that perfect line of balance belies that life will always have such instances for me... am of that type. i may improve the veneer but the outburst will not take long to follow repeated thought patterns. are other people so finely tuned to their inner instruments. Is it a curse for me that am tuned so. do i see it as a big minus or celebrate.